p.s. i love you

today i watched p.s. i love you and it was the saddest, best movie ever aside from how to lose a guy in 10 days, maid in Manhattan, and the wedding planner.

ahhhhh

not as in ahh i'm scared...well actually that works too. but ahhh as in "ahh open your mouth for the dentist"

i went, not knowing why, but i went. and i skipped the last hour of drivers ed WHICH i have to make up even though its like less than an hour. and i was happy to skip the last hour anyways cuz justin had a hockey game a noon time so he wasn't going to be there either (but thats not the reason i skipped)

dentists freak me out. i hate sitting in a chair with a light shining in my mouth and hearing all these drilling sounds, not knowing what they're doing to me. for a few minutes, i thought they were going to kill me. it hurt like crazy cuz i had to get 3 filling for my 3 cavities that i didn't know i had and they never even hurt me and they were fine until the dentist touched them. he drilled the three cavities deeper in (so they could fit in the fillings) and in doing so, he had to first use Novocain (like a shot) and i was totally surprised by it. i waited for my mom to rush in and say something like...STOP! but she was busy talking on the phone with christina. the whole time i had my fingers crossed hoping they would stop hurting me and i thought about how Jesus felt when he was whipped. of course his was much more severe but having a tooth ache really kills. it affects your brain and your teeth and your mouth and your fingers and toes..basically your whole body. you know, i don't understand why we need nerves in our teeth..

okay so today is cold and tomorrow will be colder.