Trust You

you know what my favorite part of reading people's blog posts is? i literally hear them saying what they wrote. and its really cool. and some people's voices i love hearing, so reading their blog posts makes my day.

i've realized that the past month has been just crazy. and i've also been straying away from God. i guess in all the chaos, i forgot to look to Him. even though Lent is now over and i was able to refrain from playing computer games for 47 days, i don't feel like i've taken anything away from it. i didn't read my Bible more, i didn't spend more time with God. i've actually stopped reading my Bible and i've been relying on myself. no wonder the past month was so...bumpy. (like turbulence!)

but then recently [a few days ago] i started really listening to revive, brandon heath, etc. and something really hit me. the lyrics. i listened to trust you over and over again and the more i listened to it, the more i really heard. everything in the song is so true. i love being the pilot of my own life and planning out everything that will happen. i need to know whats next or else i feel lost, confused, abandoned. but that doesn't exactly make sense. because how can i feel abandoned by God if He isn't directing me? obviously i should feel lost and confused because i have no clue what i'm doing! and its really silly of me. because God really gave His all for me (for all of us) and why souldn't we trust Him? why should we go our own way? He's there for us and He wants to help us but we're so ignorant and blind and stuck up. Theres no reason why we shouldn't trust Him with our lives.

its really difficult but He's there for us.

relax, take it easy

these are just some things on my mind:

1. so i guess i'm eighteen but i don't feel any different
2. the trees across the street have been CHOPPED DOWN! what will the chipmunks do?
3. today at the bus stop, i felt naked and exposed because the trees are gone. and all the old people buildings are right there.
4. skipping a day of school for the Gordon College accepted students day really screwed me over
5. but i did meet two nice people.
6. mosquitoes are coming soon
7. i'm dreading tomorrow but excited for the weekend
8. i'm dreading AP tests even though i only have one to take.
9. stats is making me go crazy
10. good will hunting is such a good movie. (maybe even better than how to lose a guy in 10 days)
11. woahhh mexico. it sounds so sweet.... (Mexico - James Taylor)
12. i cannot wait for disney
13. yesterday i had my favorite cake: chocolate mousse cheesecake from the cheesecake factory
14. friday will be a very very good day
15. im going to change the fish water now.

ougrutchenjorb. (ooo-gruk-en-horb)