Sunday, September 21, 2008
chuh chuh chuh CHANGES
i'm really confused right now. about lots of things. but primarily college stuff: application essays and sats. i have this horrible fear that i will NOT get into any of the colleges i apply to. and i have this horrible fear that i will fail school this term. anyways, i hope my fears do not come true, in any way. because that would be a nightmare.
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
life in the wilderness
one afternoon, approximately the 14th hour, i came to realize that i was stranded in the wilderness. no place to go, no one to turn to, LOST.
it was a bright sunny day but i was still cold. the wind tore at my skin and my arm hairs stood erect. yes i had a light track jacket in my hands, but the effort and energy i would waste trying to wrap myself warmly in its cover was not worth it. after descending slowly off the rolling thing, i strode slowly and calmly to the beginning of an adventure. my first action was to dial to my birth parent. perhaps she had left the latch unhooked? she had not. my second action involved seeing a sparkle in the pane and wondering, perhaps the working boy had come home early? but no. it was just the reflection of the sunlight.
so it was true. i was alone. alas, i decided to find someplace to rest. perhaps a tree stump? or a steady boulder? there were no stumps or boulders in the vicinity but there was this strange rock-like structure. it had cracks throughout but when i cautiously stepped up, it was as sturdy as a statue. you know, it may as well have been a statue - a solid, grey, thin, and long statue. it was extended from the the motionless giant who stood tall and proud. the giant's complexion was fading, but it's features were attractive. i was intrigued by the openings, although they were not really openings. they were pane - transparent, smooth surfaces. they allowed me to see inside but i had no way of going inside. i felt as if the wilderness had trapped me. so much space, yet no place to go.
for a good, even amount of time, i stood watching nature. my ears perked up at the sound of birds chirping, chipmunks chipping, and wind blowing through the leaves of the forrest trees. i stood in awe and wondered what other life was here? beside me, a gentle blue friend flew by and landed soundlessly on the side of the giant. it's wings were transparent and its head was black. the body, a sold, thin, glimmering strip. ignoring my fear of insects, i watched the creature, also motionless. slowly turning to examine more of nature's fine creations, i spotted a young mouse-like critter. it was furry and had a thin tail. the fur on it's back was a soft brown color and had an interesting strip of white and black intersecting the sea of brown. it sat quietly watching me. i had this deep fear creep up from the deapths of my heart - will it attack me? will the bite hurt? surely this rodent would not do any harm, it is so small.
-k i'm not sure if i will finish this. and yes, this happened to me today. no joke.
it was a bright sunny day but i was still cold. the wind tore at my skin and my arm hairs stood erect. yes i had a light track jacket in my hands, but the effort and energy i would waste trying to wrap myself warmly in its cover was not worth it. after descending slowly off the rolling thing, i strode slowly and calmly to the beginning of an adventure. my first action was to dial to my birth parent. perhaps she had left the latch unhooked? she had not. my second action involved seeing a sparkle in the pane and wondering, perhaps the working boy had come home early? but no. it was just the reflection of the sunlight.
so it was true. i was alone. alas, i decided to find someplace to rest. perhaps a tree stump? or a steady boulder? there were no stumps or boulders in the vicinity but there was this strange rock-like structure. it had cracks throughout but when i cautiously stepped up, it was as sturdy as a statue. you know, it may as well have been a statue - a solid, grey, thin, and long statue. it was extended from the the motionless giant who stood tall and proud. the giant's complexion was fading, but it's features were attractive. i was intrigued by the openings, although they were not really openings. they were pane - transparent, smooth surfaces. they allowed me to see inside but i had no way of going inside. i felt as if the wilderness had trapped me. so much space, yet no place to go.
for a good, even amount of time, i stood watching nature. my ears perked up at the sound of birds chirping, chipmunks chipping, and wind blowing through the leaves of the forrest trees. i stood in awe and wondered what other life was here? beside me, a gentle blue friend flew by and landed soundlessly on the side of the giant. it's wings were transparent and its head was black. the body, a sold, thin, glimmering strip. ignoring my fear of insects, i watched the creature, also motionless. slowly turning to examine more of nature's fine creations, i spotted a young mouse-like critter. it was furry and had a thin tail. the fur on it's back was a soft brown color and had an interesting strip of white and black intersecting the sea of brown. it sat quietly watching me. i had this deep fear creep up from the deapths of my heart - will it attack me? will the bite hurt? surely this rodent would not do any harm, it is so small.
-k i'm not sure if i will finish this. and yes, this happened to me today. no joke.
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